Paying the Price

Paying the price for your beliefs is hard. Trust me. There are things that you have to let go that mean too much to you. Maybe loved ones most likely. I know that, that's what happening to me. I have people that I love that know of christ but won't accept him (atheism etc. ) and they don't know or don't understand that it's breaking my heart bit by bit. I recognize that I'm basically hurting myself because I know that I have to leave them behind but I keep letting them in. It's like a wound that you pick at so it doesn't have a chance to heal before you pick it again. It's so hard. It feels like a death in the family and it hurts. This is where I get angry at God. Why would he permit me to meet these people knowing that they would end up hurting me and I would even end up hurting myself by letting them in? I guess you could say I have radical attachment disorder to non-Christians.